WEBVTT Kind: captions Language: en 00:00:03.700 --> 00:00:04.300 *drops camera* 00:00:04.300 --> 00:00:04.800 Oh- 00:00:04.960 --> 00:00:05.800 *sighs* 00:00:06.080 --> 00:00:09.320 Oh my god I just unironically sighed before a video. 00:00:09.400 --> 00:00:09.900 Great. 00:00:10.700 --> 00:00:11.900 I feel really sad. 00:00:12.160 --> 00:00:14.540 I really feel down right now. 00:00:16.080 --> 00:00:16.580 Uhm... 00:00:17.200 --> 00:00:17.720 Because I- 00:00:17.820 --> 00:00:18.320 I- 00:00:18.880 --> 00:00:22.080 I realized last night that I can't keep doing the vlogs. 00:00:23.200 --> 00:00:24.880 It really, really sucks. 00:00:26.160 --> 00:00:31.120 I really wanted Birdabo to be something fun and positive and different for the channel. 00:00:31.200 --> 00:00:33.360 And I think it was the first week. 00:00:34.300 --> 00:00:37.260 But now, it's just gotten to a point where... 00:00:38.560 --> 00:00:42.660 Not just me is being affected by it but like other people around me. 00:00:42.660 --> 00:00:45.940 Brad and Michael who came out here to help me with the vlogs- 00:00:45.940 --> 00:00:48.480 'Cause I was already stressed out before I came here. 00:00:49.680 --> 00:00:50.180 And... 00:00:51.660 --> 00:00:52.160 Uhm... 00:00:52.420 --> 00:00:55.440 I think I have a pretty high tolerance of stress, but... 00:00:55.720 --> 00:00:59.880 It just got worse, and I talked about this in the vlog. It just got worse when I came here. 00:00:59.880 --> 00:01:01.100 It's just been so stressful. 00:01:01.740 --> 00:01:07.740 I'm doing the show, I'm doing the daily vlogs, uh- doing RevelMode stuff, and it's just... 00:01:09.060 --> 00:01:13.600 It's just been too much. And I can deal with it, like- It's just another ten days, right? 00:01:14.440 --> 00:01:14.940 But... 00:01:16.160 --> 00:01:22.080 Like even with Marzia, it's like... forced to do all these things. It just feels forced. 00:01:22.340 --> 00:01:29.340 Brad and Michael, everyone is just stressed out over the vlogs, and I think the fun disappeared somewhere. 00:01:29.500 --> 00:01:34.700 And like if it's forced and not fun, then what's the point of continuing? 00:01:35.020 --> 00:01:35.520 Uhm... 00:01:36.000 --> 00:01:38.980 It really sucks... that I'm here. 00:01:38.980 --> 00:01:49.480 I- I- I really wanted Birdabo to be something fun and positive like I said but... 00:01:50.920 --> 00:01:53.900 I- I just can't keep going with it. 00:01:55.160 --> 00:01:55.660 Uhm... 00:01:56.520 --> 00:02:02.200 I'm really sorry... that it's... if you expected more. 00:02:03.100 --> 00:02:05.380 I'm really sorry I'm in this situation. 00:02:07.580 --> 00:02:10.020 It really sucks for me. Uhm... 00:02:12.220 --> 00:02:14.560 I've always put YouTube first. 00:02:15.900 --> 00:02:16.460 Always. 00:02:17.160 --> 00:02:22.240 Even if I'm working on other projects, it doesn't matter. The videos goes first. 00:02:22.520 --> 00:02:25.540 You guys come first. That's my main thing. 00:02:25.880 --> 00:02:28.280 But I- I can't do that while I'm here. 00:02:28.640 --> 00:02:33.200 'Cause I have to do the show... and I have to do all these other things. 00:02:33.520 --> 00:02:37.600 And keeping the vlogs up, it's just impossible at this point. 00:02:38.100 --> 00:02:43.560 So I'm really sorry to you guys for not doing that. I feel really disappointed. 00:02:45.020 --> 00:02:45.520 Uhm... 00:02:46.720 --> 00:02:49.740 I wish I could just make my normal videos again. 00:02:50.120 --> 00:02:51.240 I wish I was home. 00:02:53.180 --> 00:02:54.760 I- I miss my pugs. 00:02:55.680 --> 00:03:02.760 But I'm here for another week and uh... I don't... I don't- I don't know how I'm gonna keep doing the vlogs so- 00:03:03.780 --> 00:03:05.180 It's just not worth it. 00:03:05.560 --> 00:03:08.740 I said it before, but I never want to force content, y'know? 00:03:08.980 --> 00:03:12.960 I really have a lot of fun when I'm with my own setup, doing my own thing. 00:03:13.660 --> 00:03:15.580 But, I realized just like... 00:03:16.040 --> 00:03:19.900 Everyone just feels forced to film these things, and it's just... 00:03:22.340 --> 00:03:24.260 I'm just really sad about it. 00:03:26.140 --> 00:03:27.980 I... I hope you understand. 00:03:27.980 --> 00:03:33.860 I wish... I wish it wasn't like this- I know it's not even that big a deal. I don't know why I'm so fucking upset about it. 00:03:34.120 --> 00:03:40.100 It's just we really worked really hard on this fucking thing, and I think that's what killed it. 00:03:40.100 --> 00:03:40.600 *laughs* 00:03:41.540 --> 00:03:42.980 Which is such a shame. 00:03:44.580 --> 00:03:46.720 And I think that's why I'm so upset. 00:03:47.140 --> 00:03:52.340 I'll be back in probably a week and a half to my normal videos. 00:03:52.600 --> 00:03:55.300 I'm just need to finish what I'm doing here in L.A. 00:03:56.080 --> 00:03:59.160 I need to put myself first... this time. 00:04:03.360 --> 00:04:04.560 So disappointed. 00:04:09.080 --> 00:04:12.340 No, you know what? Let's end this on a positive note. 00:04:13.000 --> 00:04:18.980 You guys' support while doing the vlogs really carried me through, and it really means a lot. 00:04:19.380 --> 00:04:21.700 Uh... Ah, fuck. 00:04:22.840 --> 00:04:24.780 I don't even know why I care so much. 00:04:24.780 --> 00:04:25.540 It's fucking stupid. 00:04:26.100 --> 00:04:27.540 You guys have been awesome. 00:04:27.900 --> 00:04:28.620 Thank you. 00:04:29.580 --> 00:04:30.460 I'll be back. 00:04:31.080 --> 00:04:32.040 It's all good. 00:04:32.240 --> 00:04:33.600 Don't worry about me. 00:04:33.640 --> 00:04:34.280 Brofist? 00:04:34.620 --> 00:04:35.600 *laughs* 00:04:36.220 --> 00:04:36.720 Yeah? 00:04:38.820 --> 00:04:39.460 Alright. 00:04:40.980 --> 00:04:41.940 Here it comes. 00:04:45.240 --> 00:05:04.340 *music plays* 00:11:47.120 --> 00:11:54.180