Hey what up swede_cuck_84 here
back again with another *silence* video
that's right
I really just wanted to make a video a follow-up video *Fake Laugh* one of those *points at camera*
of uh...the video I made what was it called f*ck
I don't remember *WOW*
I been doing YouTube for 7 years and I guess
I'm really just tired of being in try hard mode
tired of trying that's right I am tired of trying
this kinda video I was really nervous about uploading because I didn't know
what sorta reaction it would get but
I gotta say it was truly heart warming
to see *COMMENTS POP UP* how you guys understood where I was coming from
and appreciating
my honesty with this situation
basically I been sorta treating YouTube as uh as a start up
almost like I been working crazy hours
just stressing out over it for such a long time
and I
I just realize I'm in a position where I just I want to take it
a little bit more chill and my approach this week
to making videos is really just been like *raises hands*
What do I feel like doing today??? Do I feel like
making this kinda video uh not really
but it would probaby get more views
I just been focusing on what I
personally find really interesting or fun to do
I'm just really really glad that you guys
enjoy that sh*t
it's stuff that I enjoy making
it's sorta like a new direction of the channel
the fact that you guys enjoy it
it really really really means alot cause I
just because I feel like I wanna try less hard
doesn't mean I don't care as much anymore
I really still do still care alot about you bros
that sounded pretty gay *Exposed* um you guys are okay I guess..
Uh is what I'm trying to say I really been enjoying the player unknown
videos you guys seem to as well
I really been enjoying the fan interaction videos
you guys as well I really been enjoying just sharing
reacting to stuff that I personally find really interesting
and you guys have as well really just the only
point of this video is just for me to say Thank You because uh..
I think it's really to have an audience that understands
and uh respects *obvious* me
I know maybe that's obvious I really don't think
this is the case for alot of people on YouTube looking back
at how I was treating YouTube
a couple months ago it's a very
different from now *laughs Awkwardly* I had an of office
I had couple employees
I had um
I was running a business on the side I was doing all these
projects but I found that
these were all things I thought I had that I thought
I needed personally because I thought
I had to be more "professional" but uh I think
in reality the more I try to be more of uh professional
the more I sorta less touch
in a just the direct connection w-w-with whats so good about youtube and the direct
connection with your audience
its sorta became layers upon myself and i don't know why
I thought that was a good idea
like obviously that was a terrible idea
and personally these weren't even things
I like to begin with
I don't like to travel and do other things
I don't like to do other projects that i don't really care about
but they will bring in money, these past 2 weeks
I've been so much happier as a person
I've been so less stressed out
this chill, I feel really good and
and I don't think I would be
unless you guys was on the same page as me
is what Im trying to say
I don't know, I don't know what's next to be honest
Im just gonna keep doing what I feel like doing
thats really the PLAN here, but I love doing the videos
Because they
feel more like me then they did before
cause I pationally enjoy playing
batlle grounds and i really love
F*cking Sh*ting on different things (umm ok pewdiepie)
so feel like im back in a way *slams desk*
I don't know if that makes any sense im probably just rambling at this point
but at the end I just wanna say domo arigatō(tahnk you)
thank you for being a sister
...fister and uhh
letting me
be the kind of channel I want to be
I wouldn't be here without you so im never going to ignore
uh you guys but at the same time
im like I said I really appreciate that you guys still respect
where I want to take things
I dont want to get too mopey and sh*t thank you guys so much
*claps* domo domo domo
and i'll you see you bros tomorrow with another video
and as always *kisses fist*
Sister Fister.