namaste
main ek bayaan dena chahta hoon
jo mainne apane pichhale livestream mein kaha uske baare main
jab main yah kahanta hu to aap shaayad mujh par vishvaas nahin karenge
lekin jab bhee main online jaata hoon aur main dusre players ko sunta hoon
usee prakaar kee bhaasha ka upayog karte hue jo mainne kiya tha,
main hamesha ise behad aparipakv aur bevakoof samajhta hu, aur
mujhe nafharat hai ki main ab khud gaming ke us bhaag mein kisi tarah vyaktigat roop se shaamil hu
yah kuchh aisa tha jise mainne kshan kee garmee mein kaha tha
mainne behad kharaab shabd ka upyog kiya jiske baare main soch bhi nahi sakta
aur wah kisi tarah mere munh se nikal gaya
mainn iske baare mai koi bahana nahi dena chahta ki aisa kyon hua
kyonki isake lie koi bahaana nahin hai
main khud se niraash hoon kyonki aisa lagata hai
maine in sabhee pichle vigat vivaadon se kuch nahin seekha hai
aur aisa nahin hai ki mujhe lagata hai ki main kuch bhee kah sakata hoon ya kar sakata hoon aur usse door ho sakata hoon
yah bilkul nahin hai
main sirph ek moorkh hoon
lekin mera yah kehna, meri kahi hui chizzo ko theek nahin karata hai
wah theek nahin tha
agar maine is sabake saath kisee ko bhee naaraaz kiya hai, ya chot pohochayi ya niraash kiya hai to mujhe vaakee aphasos hai
main jis sthiti mein hoon, mujhe behatar jaanana chaahie
mujhe pata hai ki main is tarah hamesha gadabad nahin kar sakata
aur main ise apane darshakon ke lie aur apane aap se behatar karane ke zimmedaaree uthata hu
kyonki mujhe pata hai ki main is se behatar hoon
main sachamuch khud ko behatar banaana chaahata hoo
sirph mere lie nahin, balki har kisee ke lie jo mujhe aadar karta hai
ya jo koee mere dvaara prabhaavit hai
aur isee tarah se main isase aage badhana chaahata hoon
yahee sab mujhe kahana tha dekhane ke lie dhanyavaad. alavida