Lifeline has now been officially released! You can pick it up on Bandcamp here: https://vocallegrahelen.bandcamp.com/album/lifeline

Try and guess what this song's about.
Yay, a new original song! And guess what? It's probably going to be part of an album I'm planning! The album title is still pending, but it'll have a few other similar songs, all UTAU originals, and all of them fueled by anxiety, depression and tea. So... pretty cheery stuff. Anyway, I hope you enjoy this song! I'm pretty proud of it :3

If you want to cover this song, then be my guest! Here's a link to the UST/MIDI pack, which also contains the off vocal for the song: http://www.mediafire.com/file/4nd13e39yuf331l/Anxiety.zip/file
And, as always, Ally's voicebanks can be downloaded from here: https://goo.gl/Se242M

So, now you know what happens when I pour out my feelings into lyrics and FLStudio VSTs. I will not go so far as to make mental illnesses my aesthetic. At least, I hope I won't. That would be pretty bad.

Lyrics:

I don't want to feel like I'm losing control,
I just want to be on top of it all,
Sometimes I feel like I'm just going to fall,
And it tears me apart at the seams
I've forgotten what it's like to be feeling okay,
Perhaps I'll get by, and feel better someday,
But I can't accept when things are going my way,
I'm just trying to learn what it means
To feel free

I don't know why I am so broken inside,
I feel like I've gone mad, and there's nowhere to hide,
I am falling apart and I just want to cry,
Won't you save me, save me from my mind?
How can you be so perfect, just how I want to be?
When I'm constantly sure that they're laughing at me,
I just want to escape, and never be seen
While inside my own head, I can only scream

I can cry for help, but I'm only ignored,
I can feel the fragments where my memories are stored,
All my fears weigh me down, chaining me to the floor,
I can't get it right, though I've done this before,
The voice in my head doesn't care what I say,
When I try to tell her it will all be okay,
All my thoughts fly around, and they keep me awake,
If I can let go, I don't know what it would take

Can I just stay here, or keep running away?
Do I think my problems will be better someday?
Even I don't understand what goes on in my brain,
But I know who I am, and perhaps it's okay
To not be so sane

---~('w'~)-^('w')^-(~'w')~---

Video created using AviUtl (I kind of miss using ZGameEditor Visualiser. But only a bit.)
The most relatable song I've written to date.
And I feel like a monster for drawing Ally crying.