- You don't know which officer is going to show up.
You don't know how they're going to react,
you don't know how the script works.
The script is non-existent for a lot of people
and that's where the problem is.
It's a dice roll a lot of time.
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It's just one of those moments where like your
mind just starts racing.
How, like, what road is this going to go down?
I feel like at this point you just, like, never know.
- May parents, I forget what they were doing,
but I was standing outside.
I was seven or eight and I saw the police beat up a man.
I remember not asking my parents about it
because I had the very, sort of, visceral sense
that this is just how things were.
- I think of all the other people
who were doing nothing wrong.
And still died in a situation.
It's just the fear of knowing that I can do
a million things that would seem harmless
to me or anybody else.
And that it could end my life.
(sighs)
- When you just look around a realize
that the playing field is not level.
- I definitely struggle with whether it's even fair
or ethical to bring a black child into this world
with things being the way that they are.
- With the gamble to live in general,
but I think there's a big difference between
chance things that can happen and then that there is
people out here who will target your child.
- You know, they might be part of this
ongoing theater of violence without repercussion.
I don't know if I have that in me.
- I can't recall a certain moment where I was like,
"Oh, you know now this happened and so
now as a result, like I'm scared."
I think just probably witnessing things over time.
I don't think these are necessarily new things,
but with technology we just see them
a lot more instantly.
And it's definitely intensified.
- I love to walk late at night,
and while I think to think I present
as pretty unassuming and non-threatening,
there's always a chance that someone
could not see me that way.
- Stay safe but also, like, don't let it change who you are.
- I don't want them to make us be afraid to love.
And to have families.
- All cops need to play by the same rules.
And those rules need to be,
that everyone is treated equally.
That's what's at the core of all of this.
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