Hi Everypony. I'm back. As I start to type this out, I'm feeling my chest well up with anxiety, but I'll do my best. I wanted to let ya'll know, I miss you. I'm grateful that the Brony fandom allowed me to meet all of you. The impact you've had on my life, not only kept me from suicide but defined my heart. I could never forget you. I love you. The show has always been my zen, my bible of hope in good times and bad and I hope it never stops. In mid 2014 I couldn't cope with the stress from the semblance of popularity I had due to the song FluttERR I made. At the time I had undiagnosed mental illnesses; Bipolar, Generalized Anxiety Disorder and ongoing neurological issues that led to me to react badly to certain situations and pull away violently. I hope this explains my distance. This song is a loose reflection on all of my mixed feelings, mad and sad, from then to now, as I went through a long period of recovery. It is completely open to interpretation otherwise. Everypony has their own reflection in the mirror pool. If anypony takes this personal, I promise you, this is not an attack, the aim is at myself. I suppose if I did want anypony to take anything from this, it would be your own reflection of the state of the fandom now. Video producer: Eleanore Valentine Video director: Kevin Asher Download link: https://www.soundcloud.com/aoshimusic/my-mirror-pool Lyrics: Spark One hoof out of Everfree Ponyville are you ready for me? Take your time and let me know what’s changed Cause all I see are the faces of those I’m estranged Elements and their relevance in a place like this Could my heart ever make it back on your VIP list? Cause I saw things in that forest that forever haunt my being And I’m terrified of friendship it will just result in fleeing And I’m overly medicated and I, I Did what you needed me to do and I, I Put my cutie mark under your microscope, I I’m lost at the cost of the path that I walk Still wrapped in the warmth of Celestia, ha Still entranced by the glow of our Luna, ha Give me rest in the wings of our princess, I’m skinless And I’d die to understand how to cry for forgiveness Look at me, look at you No reflection in the mirror pool We’re one and the same beneath You love the tears in me, I love your bloody teeth, baby Look at me, look at you No reflection in the mirror pool We gotta be what we’re gonna be You love my hurting it’s working cause I never wanna leave Spark Mind spinning in a sea of eyes Head down, I feel the judgement, let it eat my pride I thought these streets would be battered all abused You’d put an end to them, yet you tend to them, let my heart be condemned Am I the loud static of every neigh-say? Every non existent snicker on this cause way? Like I even know what they’re gonna say when my mood has gone affray. I just buck into dust and gallop away So ya’ll keep saying ya’ll remember me, uh huh But Mirror pool stopped reflecting you all, huh? So all of ya’ll just smiles and nods, huh? Beyond the hood of this black hoodie I’m the hostile, huh? Whatchu think that I went blind to my passions, huh? Bet you think you went and banished me out, huh? Pump me full of a pills and watch me go flat, huh? In the light of a Rainboom, I’m refraction, ha Look at me, look at you No reflection in the mirror pool We’re one and the same beneath You love the tears in me, I love your bloody teeth, baby Look at me, look at you No reflection in the mirror pool We gotta be what we’re gonna be You love my hurting it’s working cause I never wanna leave You know me, but you don’t own me I hope you feel lonely (I will delete comments that are blatently negative/non-constructive. It's my channel and my sanity. You have a dislike button, that is your only voice.)